He Saved Me! (Abe Point Blank One-Shot) X Rated

Suicidal thoughts, alcohol abuse, depression, unprotected sex, speeding, guns, strong language!

It will be a “happy” ending. But if you’re triggered by ANY of the things listed here. Please don’t interact with my story!

Because of the emotions in this story. I decided to NOT write it as a Readers Insert. Instead I use I/me!


Being suicidal. It’s not only about wanting to take your own life. Sometimes it’s about taking that last drink, hoping that you’ll die of alcohol poisoning. Sometimes it’s about not quit smoking, hoping that you’ll get lunge cancer. Sometimes it’s about not eating. Sometimes it’s about not bothering to put your seatbelt on in your car, when you speed up on the freeway. Sometimes it’s about just not give a damn. Sometimes it was about living inside of my head. Sometimes it was that suffocating feeling of depression, eating me up from the inside, piece by piece. And as for me, I wanted it to eat me up. Praying each night for God (if he exists) to not let me wake up the next day. That never happened. Every day I woke up, to my shit show of a life. Working that same boring job, that I hated, for minimal wage. Having to turn every single dime, to make sure it would get me to my next pay check.

Friends? I didn’t even know what that was. Co-workers, yes. Online friends, yes. Friends, real living friends, no. The few I managed to get through the years either left me, or got their lives together. Or both. By now I’ve given up. Screw life. I might come off as hard, and that was kinda my intent. People scared me. From experience they hurt me, so to keep the few pieces left of my soul, safe. I kept them at arms length. If anyone got too close, I shut them off. And not always in a nice way.

Boys? Men? Yes. I had that. A lot of it. Didn’t care. They got what they wanted, I got what I needed. Like a trade deal. It worked. It didn’t exactly make me feel any better. But other than that, it worked. I was fucked up anyway, so what was another dick, other than just that, another dick?

Psychiatrist? No, no way in hell. To give my whole tragic little life story to a person who’s JOB was to listen. Who got payed to listen. Payed to give advice. Advice that didn’t work anyway. Because they had no idea, no fucking clue what was going on in my head, in my life. They didn’t understand. How could they? How could anyone understand? Fuck, half of the time I didn’t even understand why I did the things I did. Fucked up. I told you I was fucked up.

Usually my days were pretty OK, monotone, but OK. Usually I did everything on auto pilot. Most of the time I didn’t even feel how tired I was. But some days. Some days, everything shattered around me. Like a bomb went off and blew out every single one of my windows. Like my walls was being tored down by a wrecking ball, and I had no idea how to stop it.

And that particular day. That day I Met Abe. That was one of those days. The worst I’ve had in months. One of those days, I just wanted to give up. And if it wasn’t for my strange fucked up caring for other people. I’d put my car head on into a semi truck that day. But I didn’t, instead I took it to a carwash. Don’t ask me why I decided to wash my car the same day I planned on ending it all. We all do stupid shit. So don’t ask, just listen to the story I’m about to tell you.


It wasn’t the first time that week I woke up in a bed that wasn’t mine. I lost count of how many it’d been. Didn’t matter anyway. Last night this semi blonde guy gave me what I needed in those 5-7 minutes. It was OK. Not the best I’ve had, but, not the worst either. This was kinda where I was at the moment. Kept on finding the ones that seemed to consistent be in the middle of the pack. Easy guys. Boring guys. Fuck it!

I hit the shower. I should probably just walk out of there, before he woke up, but I needed a shower. And he didn’t care about me, any more than I cared about him. I locked the door to the bathroom. I really didn’t want him in there. He was average. Not too big either. Just enough to satisfy that hole in me. Some people use food to fill the empty place inside. Me? Guess I used sex. At least that kept me somewhat skinny, combined with the fact that the money I had almost just covered rent. Pasta was basically my diet by now.

I don’t exactly know, what happened in there in that shower that morning. But something broke inside of me. And I cried, and cried, and cried. My tears mixed with the water in the shower, washing them away before they even got the chance to roll down my cheeks. But I felt them. This is it Talia. I told myself. Today, this is it. This is no life. You can’t go on like this. So just end it. Fuck everything. It’ll never get better anyway, right? So there’s no use.

I made sure that there was no evidence of my tears, before I left the bathroom. He was already awake. Of course he was. Sitting by his coffee table with a coffee cup. Looking at me.

– You want a cup?

– Nah..

I answered. Looking at the cup again.

– I’ll just buy one from Starbucks or something.

I looked away from him as I picked up my purse, and made sure everything was still in there. Then I quickly moved towards the door.

– You want my phone number?

He asked. Pathetic..

– Why?

My voice might have sounded harder then I originally intended it too. But, fuck it. I was never gonna talk to this guy again anyway.

– We just slept together!

He looks at me. God! Like that will matter in a day of two. Like he’ll ever even use my number.

– Again, why?

I didn’t let him say anything else. I just left. Maybe I should have given him my ex’s number or something. Why do I hate being mean? Everyone is always mean to me, so why does me being mean make me feel like crap? I kicked a trash as hard as I could, before I got into my car.

My original plan was to wrap my car around a tree or something. And I can’t really tell you what happened. But for some fucked up reason, I decided to wash my car first. Maybe it was that little voice in my head telling me to give it one last shot. Or maybe it was me, wanting to put some make up on before I decided to meet the man upstairs. Either way, it was one of the best choices I’ve ever made. Coincidence? Maybe. Devine intervention? Could be. Either way. That choice, that little choice to drive my car through the local carwash, for my last dimes. That was the choice that saved me. Guess it wasn’t my time that day. Guess my destiny was greater than that.

Inside the carwash, I put my music on, cranked the volume up to max. Shut the world out. It made me feel a little better. Music had a tendency to work that way. Made me smile. Although the smile didn’t feel genuine. I had literally nothing to smile about. A forced smile, brought on by the music. Fuck it!

The music was probably why I didn’t hear what was happening in the carwash, and me putting my make up on was probably why I didn’t see anything.

I didn’t notice anything before I drove out of the machine. I had to stop the car, see if it was clear for me to drive. Turned the music down. Then, there was a tap on my window. I tried to ignore it. Probably an addict looking for a fix. Another tap. Fuck this shit!

I fished up my wallet, as I opened the window. Didn’t look at whoever was standing outside.

– Take it all! I don’t need it.

I said, while putting my open hand with whatever was in my wallet out the window.

– Mam, I need your car!

Oh for fucks sake! I need this car. Being robbed was so just what I needed right now.

– I have pepper spray in my purse!

I say, slowly turning my head towards the voice. The guy leans onto my car, looking at me.

– I have a gun in my pants!

His eyes, brown, dark hair, strong features. Jesus!

– Why don’t you use it?

I say, not breaking eye contact. Showing him that I’m not one to mess with right now. I don’t fucking care if he blows my brains out. Truth be told, it will be amazing if he does.

Before I get to think anymore, or say anything else. He showes his gun in my face. And for some strange reason, it scares me. I can’t explane why. I was determined to leave this world. So why was this so scary?

He gets in the back seat, pushes the gun agains my ribs.

– Drive!

Of course I could have denied. I could have done that. If I did he’d probably shoot me, take my car, and my pathetic excuse for a life would be over. But… Instead I started to drive. Again, don’t ask me why. I don’t have an answer as to why I did that…

He guides me to an abandon building. Tells me where to stop, and then instructs for me to exit the car. The whole time he has his gun pointed at me. It’s not like I was scared. Not really. But it was kinda uncomfortable. And I HATE to be uncomfortable.

– Do you think I’m scared of that?

I say, looking at his gun. He looks down at it as well, before putting it back into his pants.

– I had to make sure you’d cooperate!

– You could’ve just asked!

I say, before turning around to get my purse out from my car. When I turn towards him again, the gun is back in his hand. Pointed at my forehead.

– Keep the fucking pepper spray in your purse!

I roll my eyes at him.

– Paranoid, much?

I ask, as he comes all the way up to me, pushing me against my car. Dragging his gun down my cheek, before placing it under my chin. Looking into my eyes.

– That smart mouth of yours will get you into trouble, you know!

His eyes locked on mine. He sounds hard, but at the same time, there is a softness there.

– Oh, please. If you wanted to kill me you’d done so already!

He takes one step away from me. Looks at me. Assessing me.

– I need help!

He says. Before he once again puts his gun back in his pants.

– Yeah.. You and me both..

I mutter under my breath. I couldn’t help it, the words just fell out of me, and I prayed to higher power that he didn’t hear me.

– What kinda trouble are you in?

He asks, as he drags his shirt over his head. Turns around and picks up a bag from the floor.

I can’t take my eyes away from his bare upper body. I’ve seen a lot of them. Bare upper bodies that is. Usually they were pretty common. Some had muscles, some had six packs. Some were skinny. Usually nothing much to rest your eyes on. But this guy. Seriously fit. Like nothing I’ve ever seen before. I don’t even realise that he looks back at me.

– What? Never seen a guy undress before?

I can’t find the right words, so instead I just shake my head.

– Well, you’re in for a treat!

He says teasingly, before removing his pants as well.

His thighs is just as fit as the rest of him. Probably just muscle. Fuck!

– Change!

He says, and throws some clothes over to me. Looks like a cop uniform. I lift it up. Look at it. It has everything. Even a badge, and it looks real.

– You want me to wear this?

He comes over to me again.

– Well, I need help. You seem like a good enough person to help me.

– Don’t count on it..

I say, mixed with a laugh.

– What’s that supposed to mean? You’re going to wear a uniform. It’s not so hard.

I send him a little smile. One of those fake ones, I know all to well.

– I keep fucking everything up. You’d be safer with someone else.

He looks down on my body. And suddenly I’m very aware that he’s only wearing his boxers. Why am I intimidated by this guy? It’s not like I wasn’t familiar with naked guys. It’s actually one of the very few things I know. I’ve never experienced a naked guy that looks like this though, or one with a gun.

– So…

He says, unzipping my jacket.

– You like to fuck shit up?

He continues, while removing my jacket. Carefully sliding it off my shoulders.

– You might just come in very handy for me then…

His hands carefully starts to unbutton my blouse. I swallow, looking down on his hands, then up at his face. Totally focused on the buttons on my blouse. I should probably have stopped him. But I didn’t. This you can ask me why. Sex was something I knew. Something I wasn’t afraid of. So I just let him. Keeping my arms by my side. Just looking at him, unbuttoning my blouse, before carefully pushing that as well down from my shoulders.

– You can touch me, you know…

He says, looking into my eyes again. Taking my hands, and placing them on his chest. I look down on my hands on his chest. Noticing the bulge growing in his boxers. What the fuck am I doing? This wasn’t what I planned should happen today.

– What do you say about me fucking you up a bit before you start to fuck things up?

He continues, as his hands reach the lining of my jeans, unbuttoning it, before sitting down, and removing them. Once again I let him. Carefully removing my legs from my pants. One at a time. Why not get some dick before I leave this world?

– Sit down on the hood!

He commands, as he gets back up.

– What?

– The hood!

He says again, as he grabs my hair, drags me to the front of the car, and pushes me face first down on the hood. And I can’t deny that I enjoy this rough treatment. And again, sex is something I know.

He carries on to dry fuck me a couple of times. I’m about to give up the whole thing, when he leans over me, grabs my hair once again, moves my face to the side, and let his tongue glide over my face.

– Tell me to stop, and I will..

He says. Still dangerously close to my face.

– Why would I tell you to stop?

He grits his teeth to me, before moving his mouth down to my ear, growling like a lion into it.

I try to turn around, but he holds me in place. Strong grip, but not so strong that it hurts.

His lips on my ear, sends shivers down my spine. Usually sex was just OK. Nothing much to scream about. But this. I was dripping already, and he hadn’t even touched me down there yet.

– Mmmmm..

I couldn’t hold back my moans, even if I wanted to.

Without a word he pulls my underwear aside, and enters me. I was so focused on his breath in my ear, that I didn’t even notice that he took his underwear off.

– Aaaa.. Fuck!

He grunts, as he slowly and carefully pushes himself deeper and deeper inside me. Shit! This is something totally new to me. Usually the men I’m with focus soley on their own pleasure. Never once stopped to think about what I wanted, what I needed or what I liked.

– Fuck, this feels good!

I can hear myself say. I have no idea how I even managed to get the words out.

– I know! So soft!

He answers, resting his body on top of me. Before he starts to move. My moans echoing in the abandoned building. Fuck! How good this feels. I haven’t had this kind of experience in forever. Not since…

– I fucking love how you feel around my cock!

He grunts, as his hand once again finds my hair, and grabs a hold of it. As he leans into me.

– Fuck me!

I answer, with the few breath I manage to use for words, and not moaning.

– So good and tight around me. FUCK!

He says again, before thrusting upwards, filling me to my very core. Hitting every single spot on his way there. My legs are about to give in under me, as he keeps up his pace, and his hard, deep thrusts inside me.

I can feel it building up, even before it hits my lower stomach. I bet that even my toes were shaking.

– Yes! FUCK ME!

I scream out, with the breath I have left. Before the orgasm takes over my body completely. He literally have to grab a hold of me, to keep me from plummeting to the floor.

Not long after, I can feel him finishing too. Pumping his warm, sticky fluids inside me, before he eventually pulls himself out. Turns me around. And place a kiss on my lips.

– I’m Abe. By the way!

I need a second to catch my breath, before I manage to answer. Fucking hell that was amazing. Almost like a drug. Already now, I want more.

– Talia!

I answer, before taking yet another deep breath.

– OK, Talia!

He says, extending his hand. I take it.

– Let me tell you what I need you to do!

Then he tells me everything, as we both get into our Cop clothes. I kinda feel like I’m about to celebrate Halloween. But with what he’s telling me, I get that this is nothing like Halloween.

He needs help to stop a prison transport. Break his brother out of prison. And we need to be dressed as cops, to intercept the car, and make them believe that we are the ones to transport him the rest of the way. Sounds easy enough. Although I have no idea how a cop behaves. But I kinda hope that he does.


The interception went well enough. Of course with illegal stuff there’s always a thing or two that goes wrong. Thankfully Abe had experience with this kind of things, and had a backup plan for every single little setback. Spun my unorganised head around. But in a strange way, being with him, although he was worlds apart from my life, made me feel safe. Like I finally found a home. I didn’t even know what a home, a psychological home felt like. Abe just effortlessly made me feel calm.

We didn’t share that many words. So don’t ask me how or why I felt that way. Maybe it was the intenseness of how we met? Maybe it was the fact that he, and his gun, saved my life that day. Or maybe I really fell in love with him. But how could I? I didn’t even know him. A brief meeting, and well the physical… thing… Fuck it. I didn’t even know what love was. Damaged goods as I was. Besides, I didn’t fall in love. At least not for real.

He kept in touch though. No matter where he was in the world. He told me what he was doing. Small stuff. Like friends. I wanted to be there with him. Still wanted my life to change. But those suffocating feelings dissipated more and more after he entered my life. That wish to disappear from the world, that wish just vanished. I danced to music again. And the need to fill that emptiness inside, wasn’t there anymore, simply because the emptiness was gone.

Just as fast as they came. They disappeared. And even though I feel this, every day I feel it. I still can’t believe that ONE SINGLE person, that you don’t even know. Can have that kind of enormous impact in your life.

But he did. He saved mine!

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